Bucket List

Johanna's Bucket List inspired me to write my own :-) This is just the first prototype of my bucket list, and I'm sure I'll add more missions to it later, but here we go... Things I want to do before it's too late:

A Road Trip in the US

This is something I've dreamed of for a long time (and it has only gone worse after I started watching Supernatural, haha). I think it has something to do with me being European: all those words like California, Route 66, South Carolina, and Kentucky sound almost magical to me (I bet Americans feel the same about Paris, Rome, or Amsterdam)... I love driving, and the idea of the endless highways of the US makes me so excited to go and explore and see and experience that I feel I might just explode!

Quit Smoking

I know it's not going to happen any time soon, but one day I'd like to give up smoking. The cruel truth is that I like smoking. Even as a kid I liked the smell of cigarette smoke. I also think my smoking has something to do with the little sister syndrome - my big sister started to smoke when she was 13, and it didn't take too long when I followed her example like a good little sister is supposed to do... I smoke a lot, and it doesn't bother me, seriously, I'm arrogant enough not to care about the health risks. Anyway, I don't drink alcohol at all, and somehow I think it would "fit" that I didn't smoke either. So, maybe one day... one day, not just yet.

Study in English

I love this language. Like, I read 95% of my books in English, I don't watch Finnish TV just because the subtitles annoy me so much, I never miss a chance to speak English and I even write my own old-school diary in English. During my gap year I realized the only courses I had really enjoyed at the University of Eastern Finland were those of Academic English, which are taught by native teachers. This spring I'm applying to this program, it sounds simply perfect for me. Wish me luck! I would also like to live in some English speaking country for a while :-)

Get the GAD 100% Under Control

Generalized Anxiety Disorder, my personal demon. It has been like 89% under control for the last year thanks to new medication. I have more good days than bad ones, but the bad days are still pretty bad. It's when I get those terrible headaches, I get dizzy, I get nauseous, I feel I can't breath, my vision gets blurry, my heart beats like crazy, I feel shaky, I get paranoid, I cannot sleep or eat, and all I'd like to do is curl into my bed and wait until the room stops spinning. I know GAD is something I will always have and I simply need to learn how to deal with it, learn how to stop it before it spins out of control. One day I'd like to be so well that I wouldn't even remember the damn thing.

Help People

...oh well, that was vague. Let me try and explain. Like Patrick Jane put it, it's nice to be nice. I love the feeling I get when I'm helping other people or making them feel better. It doesn't matter if it's helping an elderly lady across the street, doing volunteer work, or listening to my friends when they're going through hard times - I get my kicks by helping the others. I never hurt anyone's feelings if I can avoid it, and I'm always trying to understand others' point of view, no matter how bizarre it might seem to me. I love surprising my friends by letters and other little things that (hopefully) make them understand that I care, that I'll be there for them no matter what. That's who I am, and that's how I like it.

Learn Some Random Skills

I'm obsessed with some skills, and here's a list of things I'd like to try/learn. I don't necessarily need to master the skill, but I'd like to learn the basics. Glassblowing, archery, shooting a handgun, sailing, motorcycling, speaking some completely random language like Hebrew, bookbinding, developing photos... stuff like that.

Travel, Travel, Travel

I'm constantly consumed by wanderlust, and I'm at my happiest when I'm on the road. I don't know what else to say about this. Maybe one day I'm ready to settle down, but right now all I want to do is to see new places and meet new people. I think I need to write a Traveling Bucket List later, I have so many dream destinations.

See 30 Seconds to Mars in the US

Okay, 30 Seconds to Mars is my favorite band (and a great excuse to travel!) So far I've seen them in Glasgow, Manchester, London, Helsinki (x2), Stockholm, Barcelona, São Paulo, Tallinn, Riga and Vilnius, but my biggest dream is to see them in their own country. Following 30STM US tour would make a perfect addition to my US road trip, by the way! ;-)

See Rob Zombie

Rob Zombie is the coolest, your opinion is invalid. Eversince I heard Living Dead Girl for the first time (it was on Psycho soundtrack) I've been addicted to Rob Zombie's badass music. I also love his movies, and it would be awesome (and also pretty scary) to meet him too. It seems he pretty much never tours outside the US, so I think I need to go there to see a gig.

Work as a Funeral Director / Mortician

I've been working at the cemeteries for 5 years now, and I truly like the job. I have exactly the kind of sense of humour you need in this profession, and... I don't know how to explain it without sounding too creepy, but I simply enjoy the sense of closure you get in this job. Like I always tell people, being slightly obsessed with death doesn't make you suicidal, nor does it make you a potential serial killer. At the moment I work at the cemetery, which means mainly dealing with gardening and the part of the funerals that take place at the cemetery. I'd like to see the other side of this job too - the one that takes place before the bodies come to our refridgerator in their caskets. We're already joking with my boss Abby (who is also a good friend of mine) that if we don't get decent jobs soons, we'll start our own funeral home!

See Shakespeare's Hamlet in some Language I Don't Know

This is one of the most random things on my bucket list, but it's also one of the oldest. I got obsessed with Shakespeare and especially with Hamlet in highschool. I have read this play so many times I pretty much know every line by heart. I have seen it once in Finnish and once in English, but I'd like to see it in some language I don't know, and I don't know why! It is just an obsession, and the idea won't leave me alone until I do it.

Settle Down

Earlier I said I cannot settle down yet, but I hope someday I'm done with all the crazy adventures and travelling. Not anytime soon, but you know like after 40 years or so. Then I want to settle down in some quiet little village, live a quiet little life and have no regrets whatsoever. At the moment my thirst for new experiences is so huge I cannot even consider buying a house of my own, but still I hope one day I'll be ready. I don't want to drift around aimlessly my whole life, in the end I want find a HOME. A place where I will feel calm and happy even if I'm not constantly doing something. I think this will be the last thing on my bucket list, but I hope one day I will be able to cross over this one too.

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these are some things I'd like to do sooner or later. How about you, what would you like to do before it's too late? Maybe you should write your own bucket list if you haven't done it already. After writing your list, read it through and ask what the list tells you about yourself. You might be surprised how revealing these kind of deepest dreams can be ;-)

yours truly~