A Couple of New Leads in "2012" Case

I have been pretty confused about this new year, like "I have so much to do, where do I start" -confused, you know. I haven't slept well, I've been feeling low and also lost the little I had left of my appetite. I think it's all because I have been kind of stressed about 2012, about the idea that my gap year is over and now I'm supposed to start doing stuff again.

I was supposed to take the TOEFL test in Helsinki on 13th of this month, but when I started going through my notes this morning, I realized that I'm not ready. The language isn't the problem, it never was, but I'm still struggling with the answering techniques. So, I rescheduled the test, and now I will go and do it in March. I feel better already, I'm sure I did the right thing. After all, TOEFL costs 240$ and the last thing I want, is to feel I've wasted my money just because I didn't have time to prepare propelly.

Now I can take it a little easier in January, stay in Joensuu and take care of everything here. Ugh, I need to go to university and meet all my professors and explain why I'm going to quit after this semester. I will be SO relieved after I'm done with all those meetings! I know there's nothing they can say to make me stay longer than I absolutely have to, but still... well, I know it won't be nice to tell them that after my gap year I've come to conclusion that their university is not the right place for me and therefore I'll be gone as soon as possible, thank you very much and goodbye. HA, I already promised myself I will buy the complete Friends seasons 1-10 DVD box set after I'm done with all those terrible university meetings, that should motivate me enough! ;-)

So, staying in Joensuu in January. In February I want to go to Luumäki / South Karelia for a few days. I miss my family, especially Miia. We talk on the phone almost everyday, but of course it's not the same. I think I'm a little homesick for South Karelia, which is weird because I'm supposed to be home right now, in my own apartment in Joensuu. Complicated and pretty annoying, but if everything goes as planned, all this will be over in a few months and I can leave this damn town for good and move back to where I really belong. Ohh yes, and Abby might be coming to Joensuu in February, we have some plans for Valentine's Day (yay, watching NCIS all days long!)

Then it will be March, I'll go to Helsinki and do good in TOEFL. Maybe I could even organize a little trip after TOEFL, since I'll be in Helsinki already (all the cheap flights take off from Helsinki). I noticed Blue1 flies from Helsinki to Rome for 59€ which sounds oh too tempting. March would be a perfect time to take a little holiday - after TOEFL, but before moving and entrance exams which are in April, and before I can go back to work in May. We'll see, but like I said: tempting, ohh so tempting...

That's the plan for this spring, felt good to write it all down (in my opinion, everything always makes more sense if it is written down). We'll see how all these plans turn out, but right now I will simply concentrade on trying to sleep better, this lack of sleep is taking its toll. Argh my old friend Insomnia, I didn't really miss you at all.

In the end I want to show you something that totally made my day yesterday when I opened an email from Ria! It is the "Tim & Three Mice" photo from Lithuania, and for some reason I didn't have it until now. This was the first time I got myself photographed with 30STM touring basist Tim Kelleher, he is the sweetest guy<3 The other two mice are Elina and Ria :-)

photo taken by Johanna & sent to me by Ria

Sorry if I bored you with my plans, I guess this was one of those blog entries I just needed to write for myself to get it all down somewhere. Now I'm off the make a chicken salad and then it's time to watch the new NCIS episode (yay, I've missed DiNozzo)

yours truly*